Is my daughter destined to be an only child?

OK, I might not be able to blame the MS for this one. But it's so easy to, because we were only just trying for another baby when it all happened last year. it has completely taken me by surprise how much it hurts to go month after month with no news. The number of times that I have read into the tiniest sign and built myself up, only to be disappointed. And then I try to tell myself that it will be fine for Sophie to be an only child. And then I look on the internet to see what other people in my position say, and it didn't help, because I am now wondering what I'm going to do when Sophie asks for a baby brother or sister. She is a sociable little girl, and I don't want her to be lonely. There are only so many times other people are going to let me borrow their children for play-dates!!!

My brother and I aren't especially close, but I do hope that if things ever got really bad for our Mum, then we would be there for each other. I don't find it easy having a parent with MS, and I worry about leaving Sophie alone to deal with that. And then there is the plain old selfish reason for wanting another one - babies are cute.

This is what I don't get about the "oh well, you're lucky to have one." Yes, that is so true, but it also means I know exactly what I'm missing. And when lack of experience means that you get something wrong, or you feel you haven't the most of having that tiny baby, you just look forward to another opportunity to do it again.

And anther facet to it is all my friends that I made when I first had Sophie have all had their second babies, and the regular coffee meetings are likely to start once the chaos subsides. I can't face them, which I feel guilty about because I'm taking another opportunity away from Sophie to play with other children.

Anyway, it's not a done deal, so fingers crossed.